Dead man walking

There are times when you met into problems in your life. No matter what it is, friendship, family, or even your love life.

But what really matters most is that you will learn to pick yourself up and learn how to fight for your own happiness.

For me, I am such a failure. I dragged a miscommunicated friendship for 1 and half year. I feel guilty, and yet I feel nothing. I think I'm dead now.

It was that feeling of happiness when you see friendship rekindled. Although you didn't help a lot, but it just bring a smile to your face when something good happens.

It's time for a change

Looking back

Looking back at past conversations with Brennan, well, it was saddening. But not to the extent of heart broken.

I realised how unhappy we were, how we quarrel over small things. At least we're happy now. Without each other. At least this is what we enjoyed? Both of us are happy independently (: I'm glad that he's happy now. Now, I just have to find more about myself and know what I really want. (:


Thank you life. For giving me this chance to grow up. love love

O levels is coming in 71 days. Fuck. I haven't even start on my studying. T_T


I need to focus. I need to focus.

I think I need to handle my emotions. I have been so angsty and moody. Omg




I NEED TO CONTROL

disgusted

You're not ready. You're just lonely.

Love isn't suppose to be like that. Stop acting like you know a lot. Stop saying you love her or her or her alot alot alot until you can't get over her. Because if you truly loved her or whoever she is, you shouldn't even find another love so far, telling her the same thing over and over again. Moreover, talking about the future? Oh come on, stop lying.


Although you're my friend, but I'm sorry. You just majorly pissed me off.

I'm not sure whether it's my biaseness against love or something or whatever, but the way I see you handling it is like a game. You might think it's serious, but sorry, to me, you're not serious.

You're breaking your own heart. Be wise. Love when you are ready, not when you're lonely. This isn't love. Your "love" isn't the REAL love, you're just desperate.

Happy girl 1995

And so, today was awesome!!! :D I had my prize presentation award ceremony which is PHEWWW. 2 awards hahaha, which were just 2 certificates sigh -.- But at least my efforts are recognised :) Hehehe thank you school (:


I actually went up stage, for the first time in my whole secondary school life, to answer a question. A lyrics question :D Oh well, that went well, because I had the lyrics on my phone and I didn't want to go up, but everybody was like shouting my name and Mr Thomas encouraged me to go up. I was thinking, "well, it's my last year, why not do something that I never did before. Well, Miss Loh was like, "Hi Eileen!" hahaha in a soft voice. :P And I got a red file for answering correctly and WOOHOOO, I WAVED LIKE SOME PROUD GIRL ON STAGE, AND I MADE EVERYBODY LAUGH ^_^v HAPPY GIRL. It's so nice listening to the school's laughter, because of me :P hahaha.

Well, watched Captain America today with Jessi, Lauren, Veronica, Alex, Zhihong, Brennan. OH IT WAS SO MIND-BLOWING. I SAW MY CHRIS EVANS, SO HOT. I MELTED <3 <3 <3 <3 HEHEHEHEHEHE.

BUT ANYWAY, IT WAS SO AWESOME WHEN RAFE TWEETED ME ABOUT MY F21 SPREE IS HERE OMG. I SAW MY CHECKERED SHIRT AND IT'S SO PRETTY <3 <3 HEHEHEHEE AND TOMORROW AWAITS THE GRAND ARRIVAL OF THE KATE SPADE IPHONE COVER <3 HAPPY GIRL 1995 :D

To go up, you must go down

To go up, you must go down. So once you go up, the feeling of joy is overwhelming.

I am in broken pieces, yet nobody could understand it better than myself. He took a big part of me. I never ever want to see the "me" inside his eyes again. Never

Broken, but nobody knows

Yes, I'm one despo for love. I just want to relive the moments of being loved, being cared for, relive the moment of one wanting to talk to me everyday, wanting to see me everyday, wanting to see that smile of mine, because it brightens up his mood. I just want to be somebody's everything., somebody who loves me whole-heartedly for who I really am.


I think I sound shameless, impatient, selfish and  desperate, but this is my dream. Always.

it kills

I don't want to see your face, I don't want to hear your voice, I don't want to see your name. I don't want to be living inside your memory. I don't want my life to do anything with you. As long as I see your name, I see your face, I hear your voice. Memories will just come flooding in. I hate it.



Memories kill.

LOVE X10000000

My darlings from my class <3 Awww, they always make me laugh so hard. They always make me forget all my troubles and worries. Love love xoxo.

I wish you all were by my side all day. Not forgetting the WOW GANG...

Friendship problems never fail to make me cry

The world will be a much peaceful place if you just shut the fuck up

Sometimes, parents need to know what kids are going through

Hypocrite

Hypocrite. Don't be such a hypocrite like for goodness sake. Wearing a mask, showing that you're a gentleman and a fun person won't change the view of people about you. You said you will change? I don't see changes. Instead, you deteriorated. You become worst. Worst till you threatened. Threatened someone over things that you don't have. Jealous? You deserve it. If you don't do all those things, maybe, one day, people will forgive and forget. But a leopard never changes its spot.


Let's see how well you can act tomorrow. But even so, nobody will believe you. Not anymore

I just want to shut everyone out of my world. I just want to be alone somehow. Where I am comfortable with me and myself. And never afraid of what people say about me.

Sorry

Sometimes, enough is enough. I deactivated my facebook. I've enough of people i don't know why. Just want to be alone somehow. I'm so tired. So tired of being strong to withstand mockeries. Yes, I can stand it. But there's times when you just have to love yourself enough to stop hurting yourself with words that people said.


They may say, "ignore", "Be Immune". I'm sorry, I'm human. I'm a girl. I'm not superhero. I can't possibly be that strong and immune to words. I have low self esteem, lower than normality. I had enough. I just need a break.

I'm sorry Lauren. Really Sorry ):