Dedication

This post, will be dedicated to my friends, to those who were always there. To those, who never left.


This year ain't a very smooth year for me. I experienced a lot. I think I am repeating this post but it doesn't matter. I would like to express my gratitude here.

Firstly, thanks for being with me, through thick and thin, when my life got fucked, when my heart got broken, thanks to all my friends who stayed by my side to encourage me to stay strong and to carry on with life. To have strength to overcome all the obstacles I face. \

Secondly, thank you all for the listening ear that you have gave me. All of you are awesome people that always tell me that it isn't going to be easy, and what I need is time. One day, I will shine, and someone will come and appreciate me for who I am.

Thirdly, Thanks for the laughters and smiles that you all have given me when I thought I lost it. I found back the laughter that I missed, I found the genuine and beautiful smile that I have lost. I compared pictures last time when I'm with him, and pictures without him. I can see a lot of differences. I can feel the difference in the smile. Not that I am not happy when I'm with him, but the happiness now, is different. It's filled with freedom, fun and most importantly, myself. Thank you for making me feel more confident, more beautiful. You all make me love myself, even more.


Lastly, it is the most important that has ever happen to me. Thanks for telling me to be myself. If it's not because of all of you, I might have never find myself at all. I might be still trying to be somebody I'm not. I found myself. I found what my source of happiness, and what "Do not rely only on one person to give you happiness when there's others out there who can give you much more happiness that you deserve" really means. Thank you Rafe. I truly understand this now. Thank you Zhihong, for counselling me. Telling me this, "Do not even let him invade your thoughts" and Karl's "clear your eyes, clear your mind", Ferland's "we accept the love we think we deserve" and what KK has said, "let go of the anger. The anger of you losing to some other girl. the anger about him, going back on his words"

Thank you papa, mama. Thanks for talking to me about letting go and telling me about your own love life. Thanks for telling me to let go. To move on. To remember that life has been predestined. Thanks for telling me that I will find someone someday. It's just a matter of time. Thanks for hugging me when I am crying. Thanks for always being there for me.


For now, here are the people who I want to really really thank:

Jocelyn
Ferland
Lauren
Aye Hsu
Rafe
Boon Chua
Louise
Brennan
Karl
Kenneth Koh
Jessi
Alex
Andrea
Jasmin
Denise
Zoe
Cass
Father
Mother
and many more.

If you're reading this, and sorry if your name isn't mentioned, but just know, thank you <3 I will pray for every one of you to be happy everyday, a healthy life, and everything will be safe for you.

To those who left, I'm sorry I am not enough to keep you, but sorry, I guess, you're never meant to stay in my life. Just a lesson, just an experience, just a memory. For me, I chose to forget. Because that's the way to be happy I guess. For now. I may say it's impossible, but I'm trying to overcome the impossible. (: I will never let my heart waver, I will stand firm on my ground, continue looking forward. I want to thank you for your departure and your despair in our relationship. You make me found who are my true friends, you say I don't need them, but I'm sorry. They are important in my life. They are the reason of who I am today. (:

Well, Darren Lim, be happy for what you have now. Don't fucking regret. Well, I didn't fucking regret leaving you. You gave up this relationship first. You let go first. Remember that (: If you ever see this, well, let me tell you this, I'm putting behind the love I have for you, I'm putting the behind the love you have for me, I'm putting the scars and broken pieces behind. I'm putting the memories behind. You were once worth it. Not anymore. I'm walking away. I'm walking forward, never looking back. You are nobody but a stranger now. Someone I never really knew.


And hell yeah, I'm fucking awesome.